9.1.16

Looking Something NEW?


A Journey has molded us for our greater good and it was exactly what it needed to be. Some of us think that we've lost time, which is not healthy for our well being. Practice not to think that we've lost time;in life there is no short cutting line. It took each and every situation  we had had encountered in our daily living to bring what we are now.

Transformation is possible anytime; a person nor a situation can transform, it is just a matter of  under the proper condition of faith,belief and trust in ourselves, never give up trying something new. We only live once and that once make it happen to the fullest. 

I myself had a huge transformation in my life. It all started when my ex-husband just dumped me for a shallow reason though, that I don't even know that it was existed until I received a text message from him (while I was spending my holiday off with my parents back home) that he filed the divorced. I know right! what a coward? Doesn't even have the guts to tell in my face that "hey! let's get divorce". So yeah my life was ruined those days, I was so devastated and my whole world crashed into pieces and it was very hurtful because he was my first love ( yeh, my first bf as well xD). Pretty tough for me to moved on when the love of your life just broke you into pieces that scattered all over the place that I don't even know where to start picking up those broken pieces that he left me. I seek helped I've been in a therapy for about 20months, my therapists suggested to go out, make new friends, see the beauty outside the four corners of once I called "home sweet home". I did do what my therapy told me; I made a tons of friends and that's the time that I figured it out that nothing is wrong with me cos I easily made friends. I was blaming myself that there might be something wrong with me that's why my ex husband left me. Despite the fact that he left me I never get angered/mad or blaming him for making my heart broken. At some point I should thanked him for leaving me,since the time he left me I started looking something new in my life. I started to gathered all the pieces that left behind and I found out that I am not an impotent girl, that I am very active, sociable and cheerful girl and I figured it out that I am an independent, strong, brave, optimistic and a positive woman.

After those dilemmas in my life I started to take care myself, look myself and love myself first (of course my parents will always be priorities) not selfish though! nevertheless, I learned a lot! like a lot(too many too mention xD) yet, I am still in a process of learning something new! especially how to get out totally from my comfort zone! yes I know I've been through a lot of dilemmas but I still have my comfort zone, and I can't escape yet too afraid to get out from my zone. 

This is just a brief of transformation in my life. I am always ready to face now  all the challenges that comes along my path. Because this is what life means to me. Face all the challenges; forgetting my past ( but looked what it taught me) don't look the future ( but be ready what it will give me) and live my life to the present cos I am here now today living and breathing at this current time. <3

Happy weekend!

xx 
Jo

3 comments:

  1. I met Joanna when she got divorced, from the moment we met I immediately felt connection with her because she is very lively person. We have the same humor, unfortunately then she moved to another city but I understood she needed to move on. She is a very brave person, she changed and learnt a lot with the situation. I would not be so brave, I would have had back home forever.
    Joanna is also a positive person and I think that helped her a lot.
    Its been a long process but hey, what doesnt kill us, makes us stronger. Sometimes we don't know how strong we are.

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  2. That is so sweet Nanci <3 that's is why I'm missing you so much :) I lose one person in my life but I gained more. Thank you so much for such a wonderful friend! hugs

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